This is 16th of this month and the clock is showing time. Why the time is so important? Amar always talks about 'time' which always flow out of my mind. Dear Dost, sometimes, I realise, why I even say you Dost? Are u even my 'Dost'? I don't think so! I am again in the way of seperation. Everytime, when you left me, it always feels like living two feelings at the same moment. One is pain:past:memories and other is adding experience once again that human beings are limited. Limited stupid fellow who beleive themselves unlimited. We are the source of new possibility and essentially indeterminate, as Hegel says but not 'unlimited'. Sometimes we act like monsters. Do you know, I while writing this sensing the feeling of relaxation. It is like enjoying myself. I started treating myself. Sometimes the departure of bad person from one's life is essential in order to open the gate for other persons and in order to value the presence of other important persons. The bad is specific to me. It means you are not bad but your presence in my life was bad only for me. And I again beleive, in the subbalterness of human relationship. I beleive in the spritual touch of human relationship. I think, even I can confirm, the best product of love; is the separation.
I say to myself, it's time to write. It's time to read. It's time to widen the very limited knowledge about understanding of Hegel's and Kierkegaard's philosophy. It's time to go deep down in the sexuality of Foucault which we used to say something else; I hope you remember. It's time to introduce myself with the character of Chinua Achebe and Ismat Chugtai. It's time to philosophise our life through the very sense of ground reality, question our approach towards the life. It's time to sit with people of distant whom we don't know and ask about her/his pain and anxiety. Why love should be limited to one person if we can expand it to even unknown person. I beleive which we very commonly used to say love: is racist at least in India.
Vippu said once, it's good that sometimes we feel low and disturbed. It helps us to improvise ourselves. It helps us to understand ourselves. It helps us to rethink again the hopes and struggles of our closed one. It gives us time to relocate our privileged and the cost of this privileged which we are getting in our present moment.
Why should I not waste this privileged moment about thinking you? Raising question is enough, I don't need answer. The only thing matter is to raise right question: answers are always subjective and manipulatable.
Good bye!
Delhi.
16/10/2021.
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